[they say it's easy to fall in love with someone when you see a side of them that no one else does.
baren never believed that - and still doesn't believe it now when zoro's walls come down. there's none of those feelings of affection and warmth, just the same ache and anxiety sprung from causing hurt to someone that he cares about. zoro deserves more than this. it's not his first time delivering rejection - not by a long shot - but for some reason this one feels heavier than all the rest. maybe it's because he never expected to field these types of emotions from someone that he cherishes, treasures.
there's still some confusion, some frustration in the sense of what the fuck do you see in me?
followed by the frustration of knowing that he'd give zoro anything in the world, anything he could ever ask for, but there's no way that he could give him this.
when the word 'kiss' leaves zoro's lips - baren doesn't tense, he doesn't pull back, he only looks confused. it's a known fact to both of them how much baren hates infidelity and even now he trusts that zoro would never do anything to break one of baren's few moral rules. instead it's just the swirling confusion, the inability to understand what's going through zoro's brain. it's not a feeling he likes.
he's given him everything? only been good to him? zoro might miss it - the way that baren's brow furrows because he's never thought anything of that, of the way they met. he broke into the hospital room because he needed to, then because he wanted to, because there was someone inside who was worth his while in this new city that made laughter easy.
did that really mean so much?
wasn't it just for fun?
something twists in his stomach then as he realizes that there might be a lot about his relationship with zoro that he never realized - that never crossed his mind as something meaningful, it was just them.]
... you know Koko'll be pissed if you deal with this by yourself just because she might be studying.
[ - because at least baren can realize when he's said enough. when the truth has become evident to both of them and they both need time to process it. it sucks it sucks it sucks not being there for zoro when he's anything less than 100% but.]
You get a day. You need longer, you let me know.
... You need anything else that I can give, you let me know.
[time? space? actually moving out? he can do that. for once, he fully offers zoro command of where they stand.]
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baren never believed that - and still doesn't believe it now when zoro's walls come down. there's none of those feelings of affection and warmth, just the same ache and anxiety sprung from causing hurt to someone that he cares about. zoro deserves more than this. it's not his first time delivering rejection - not by a long shot - but for some reason this one feels heavier than all the rest. maybe it's because he never expected to field these types of emotions from someone that he cherishes, treasures.
there's still some confusion, some frustration in the sense of what the fuck do you see in me?
followed by the frustration of knowing that he'd give zoro anything in the world, anything he could ever ask for, but there's no way that he could give him this.
when the word 'kiss' leaves zoro's lips - baren doesn't tense, he doesn't pull back, he only looks confused. it's a known fact to both of them how much baren hates infidelity and even now he trusts that zoro would never do anything to break one of baren's few moral rules. instead it's just the swirling confusion, the inability to understand what's going through zoro's brain. it's not a feeling he likes.
he's given him everything? only been good to him? zoro might miss it - the way that baren's brow furrows because he's never thought anything of that, of the way they met. he broke into the hospital room because he needed to, then because he wanted to, because there was someone inside who was worth his while in this new city that made laughter easy.
did that really mean so much?
wasn't it just for fun?
something twists in his stomach then as he realizes that there might be a lot about his relationship with zoro that he never realized - that never crossed his mind as something meaningful, it was just them.]
... you know Koko'll be pissed if you deal with this by yourself just because she might be studying.
[ - because at least baren can realize when he's said enough. when the truth has become evident to both of them and they both need time to process it. it sucks it sucks it sucks not being there for zoro when he's anything less than 100% but.]
You get a day. You need longer, you let me know.
... You need anything else that I can give, you let me know.
[time? space? actually moving out? he can do that. for once, he fully offers zoro command of where they stand.]